Dear Ones,
Have you heard? Spoiler alert: I’m a lesbian!
In response to the HRC’s 25th anniversary of “National
Coming Out Day” on October 11th, I will post a series of four blog
entries, explaining my coming-out experience. While it may not be of interest
to a whole lot of folks, it is a healthy step for me to take as I reflect on
where I've come since coming out.
Before I came out 3 years ago, I created this Blog to use as a medium, in real time, for coming out. I had plans of
dropping the news in written form with the candor I could not muster during
face-to-face interaction. The entries were
going to be candidly poignant, spiritual, intelligent and a little comical. I was going to convince my little Christian
community bubble that….it’s ok to be gay by Jesus! Woot!
I posted a whopping 2 entries before quitting that endeavor.
I realized quickly that I could not CONVINCE anyone of anything and personal
interaction (while more difficult) was the more honest and vulnerable way of
coming clean. The two entries did not mention gay at all.
After the first few “coming out” conversations unveiled
undesirable results, and with courage wearing thin, I believe I dropped off the
map in some friends’ lives and minds. I indeed cut some loved ones out of my
life and left others with questions. Admittedly, it wasn't fair of me. And
honestly, I felt rejected by my Christian community as a whole. I left my Church
and was asked to leave the youth group I had been leading. More than that, I
became honest with God, others and myself. I can say now that I am more
peaceful, happier, healthier, and more in love than I ever imagined I could be.
I came to a point where I can speak truthfully without worrying how others are
going to respond. I know God loves me, I know my family and friends love me. The absolute love of my life, Amanda, encourages
and loves me every day. From my great love story with Amanda comes my courage
to be honest and open and willing to be real.
I implore; if any of you are mildly interested in what I
have to say or have questions for me about my journey, please join me by
reading the following four posts, keeping an open mind along the way. I
encourage comments, questions and written correspondence in any form. I will post the first on October 11th.
Much love,
Becky
I'm glad you decided to post this. I'm excited to learn more about you and your story. Thanks for sharing it with me, Becky:-).
ReplyDeleteBecky. Looking forward to reading about your journey.
ReplyDeleteI love hearing about individuals in process (all of us really - it's just some are more aware of it). I love hearing their heart. I love being inspired by their courage as they give voice to the passions inside them. Although I don't know you well, I look forward to getting to know you a bit through your blog.
ReplyDeleteA while back I saw the article in Lancaster magazine about you and your house (very cool), it made me wish I had gotten to know you better during our short overlap at HDC.